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My Story

I always felt weird and misunderstood. Trying Mom’s make-up kits and stupidly walking around in her high heels was pretty fun. I tried to be surprised and enjoy it when, at one Christmas, I was given a sport ball. Not going to lie, I simply didn’t know what to do with it.

What I Do

I am the Co-Director of X-Out-Loud. I lived a life of homosexual struggles and gender confusion until I met God in power. I then began a journey of healing - a great passion of mine amongst sexual restoration and emotional healing for those who struggle with unwanted same-sex sexual desires and/or gender identity. God has gifted me with the ability to tell stories through both videography and writing which I have been doing since I was a teenager.

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I'm so excited for everything God's done through my life so far! God uses vessels to spread love and salvation and make a difference in both the lives of the lost and of the strugglers. If you're interested in supporting my cause, I would be incredibly grateful for any donations you're able to contribute. Your support would mean the world to me, and I'm so thankful for anything you're able to give. Sending love and blessings your way - God loves a cheerful giver.

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Ministries I benefited from

I've benefited from different people and ministries and want to help you do the same. There are organisations specialising in emotional healing, the masculine heart, deliverance, sexual restoration. I've compiled a list of the ministries that have helped me the most. Use it to find the support you need.

*The fact that I recommend them doesn't necessarily mean I identify with all their views.

Core Issues Trust

Wild at Heart

Ellel Ministries

Vlad Savchuk

Apostle Kathryn Krick

Were you born gay?

I was not born gay. God showed me key moment in my upbringing were my trust in men and self-confidence were destroyed. I was exposed to behaviours that I should have never seen as a child. I went through a lot of bullying that came, mostly, from men.

That confused me and caused me to reject my own masculinity and men around me likewise. But because I was created male I started to long for that part of me that I had pushed away. And because it was a need that didn’t get fulfilled it became sexualised. Very soon I found myself craving the very thing I had been rejecting: masculinity.

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Are you straight now?

Jesus never asked us to embrace a sexual label. He asks us to give our lives to Him and He will enable us to live according to His Word. He is able to change our desires (being those emotional, sexual or material) to match His good and perfect will. 

God doesn’t want us to just stop sinning, He wants to make us whole and heal our hearts. Isaiah 61 speaks about Jesus being the anointed One to heal the broken pieces of our hearts, which caused all the confusion in which we once wandered apart from Him.

Since I surrendered my life to Jesus I noticed significant changes in my desires, in the way I perceive men and women, in my life goals and inclinations. 

My view about men is healthy now, I don’t see them as sexual objects, and my view about women changed: I do see them as beautiful and desirable. 

Surely I’m living my life in godly boundaries, not intending to give way to any sexual thought or feeling outside biblical marriage. 

I’m not confused or uncomfortable with my gender anymore, and I can see myself happily married to a woman. I like my body in its male form and wouldn’t want it to look differently. I enjoy spending time with other men and am not feeling inferior when doing that.

I don’t feel sexually attracted to other men. I do not want to be in a romantic relationship with one. 

Can you be a gay Christian?

Gay is a man made identity. It represents a behaviour and life view that contradicts the one God intended for humankind. 

Even though we may experience feelings and have thoughts from the enemy, we don’t identify with them. As Christians we identify with Christ, that’s why we call ourselves Christians. 

Imagine a Christian that is fighting any other sinful behaviour, for example swearing. Would they call themselves a profane Christian? No! Nobody would. It’s a juxtaposition!

Breakthrough and change come in our life by declaring the truth. If we adjust or accommodate it we won’t get to far in our journey of becoming more like Jesus.

Can someone be born gay?

I don’t believe people are born gay. Are people born liars, murderers, profane? No. Why would they be born gay? 

Most of the person’s brain development starts after birth, through external factors: relationships, things seen or heard, beliefs, environmental experiences. 

Suddenly a big percentage of the population has become LGBTQ?! Isn’t it weird that for thousands of years it used to be isolated cases here and there and suddenly now it’s normal? 

Why is that? Well, it’s because the recent generations have grown up with LGBTQ ideology infiltrated in the educational system, entertainments ads, street life, etc. They have been influenced and desensitised to the point where everything goes and is accepted. 

Therefore, if ‘born gay’ was a thing, wouldn’t have we seen it all along history as the norm? 

Most of the people who are or have been experiencing sexual or gender confusion have been through any of the following: broken or toxic relationships, sexual, physical or emotional abuse, rape, early exposure to pornography, improper and early sexual arousal, manipulation, intimidation, witchcraft, etc. 

There are people who are willing to surrender to Jesus even with their sexual and gender issues. All of them experience different degrees of emotional healing and sexual restoration. It’s all directly affected by how willing we are to yield to the Holy Spirit and allow Him to heal our brokenness. 

WHAT IS YOUR STAND ON TRANS?

Transgenderism assumes people are being born in the wrong body. That is impossible as that would put God’s character under question as confused, not good, and not perfect.

God cannot do mistakes. Everything God does is perfect and with no equal. God is not the author of confusion, therefore those who are confused about their sex are led so by anyone, but God.

As God and His angels are real so are the devil and his angels. They produce confusion in a person’s mind and heart and use the current mainstream ideology to convince them that what they feel is real and is solvable by changing the body to match the feelings, instead of changing the mind to match the body.